Friday 29th June, 2007

I had a very very long conversation with Tracy last night, a fellow member of the WLS info forum, who had her plastic surgery on TV onthe Extreme make over programme. Her surgery was done at the McIndoe Centre and I was really grateful for her insight into plastic surgery. I hope she did not feel like I had picked her brains out !! It was a great conversation and seems we have loads in common too. She's a star and I really hope to meet her when I go to have my surgery, if she comes to visit. I really hope you do Tracy - if you are reading this :)
So, I have to add a sports bra, and magic knickers to my shopping list for October time. I will need these for a little while post op to keep me in shape. I cannot fathom what it must feel like to feel down and not feel a flap of skin there. Tracy said that she felt her tummy and boobs and wondered who they belonged to ! I can imagine it's going to be wierd ! Boobs facing straight ahead ! WOW !
I am so annoyed at myself for not making a note of what I wanted to blog today. It was on my mind yesterday, and now it's gone. WHAT was it ?! It was how I was feeling about something...
Ugh... I will let you know if and when I remember !

I tried on some clothes that have been sitting in my wardrobe that were too small for me a fortnight, and this morning they fit me !! I had a pair of hipsters which obviously I didn't realise were hipsters at the time of purchase, which were laughing at me saying ' fit round you.. I don't think so ' every time I opened my wardrobe. Now they go round me... well, around my flap !... but they are Hideous - with a capital H. My midrif just sticks out over the top and because it's just floppy skin there is nothing I can do about it ! What a lovely image I have given you dear readers ! Give me 4 months guys and I will be able to pull jeans of any shape on without having to fold my flap into them ! I am so looking forward to being able to put a bra on without having to manipulate myself into it. My boobs are just plain depressing. No two ways about it.

The kids finished school this morning, and are now off until September. In a way I am looking forward to having them about and enjoying the summer together, but in another way, and any parent will understand where I am coming from here, I will miss my peace and quiet ! It's nice to get them off to school and be able to come home with Michael and have a quiet morning, or go shopping with him, just him and me, and not have 2 other kids wanting and needing and asking for stuff all the time. It's going to feel wierd this time next year though, when Michael is about to start nursery in September ! He's just a baby ! How can he be starting school in a year? Rachel was all pleased with herself today because she got Pupil of the month awarded to her today. It's a great boot to her self esteem for the summer holidays. She was really pleased with herself, and quite rightly so. She's come on well this year. Now I have just a week to pack for Centre Parcs and I can tell you, I can't wait ! It might rain all week, but I don't care. We will be away and spending lots of time together, relaxing and enjoying being a family. Hope Frances behaves herself ! There are advantages and disadvantages to taking your mother in law on holiday with you... advantage is you have a built in babysitter, disadvantages are, you have to watch your p's and q's ! Anyway.... we are all looking forward to it and we are going to have a good time.

Going back to this looming operation of mine.... I am beginning to let it dawn on me that I am going away again. It's so crap for Alan to be away from me and visa versa. It would be so lovely if he could even fly over for the day to see me. Wonder what the air fare is. Frances could cope with the kids for one day. I just know I will be missing him so much, and I want him to be a part of my transformation, so seeing me in the McIndoe would be really good. Perhaps not though.. perhaps being there when I get back on the monday will be better because I will have had some time to recover a little. Ugh... I dunno. We need to talk about it a bit, see what is right to do.

OK.. I still cannot remember what I wanted to blog about, and I have run out of stuff for now. If I remember, I will put in another entry for today !