Wednesday December 12th 2007

So here I am again, a month later and I have to say first up..... I have the body that I always wanted !! My tummy is flatter than a pancake and my boobs are just yummy ! I can wear clothes that nip in at the waist now and WOW, no bulge to hide ! I bought myself a dress for Christmas - a red one, and it's totally awesome. I could never ever have imagined myself wearing anything so lovely before, but here I am, the owner of this beautiful dress, and I am over the moon with it ! It's backless, with a little belt for detail and a pencil line skirt to it. I have no lumps or bumps to hide anymore, just 2 gorgeous ones that Al can't keep his hands off !!
Am I happy that I had this plastic surgery done... you bet ya ! Patrick Dedoncker is right up there on the same pedestal as Bruno Dillemans, and I am eternally grateful to both of them for their skill and handiwork that has given my life back to me. I feel sexy for the first time EVER, and it's down to these 2 blokes who are so skilled at what they do. Yes, both surgeries hurt, and perhaps I have been a little too blunt about that in my blog, but I would rather tell it how it was for me then cover it in lace and pretty it up. When you have surgery, you have to expect it's going to hurt a bit, but that is ok, the end justifies the means. Just take a deep breath and say that it's just one day... one silly little 24 hours of this much ouch, and tomorrow it will be a bit better, and the day after that will be better still, and before you know it you are on your way home to your own bed and your creature comforts. I am 5 weeks away from it now and my scars are all healed and I am feeling amazing. I am still having to wear my corset but that is to squish in this seroma on my tummy. It's just a little blip but I am getting used to wearing it and will behave myself and wear it all day until it's done it's job. I give myself a breather at night though and whip it off !!
For those who are about to go for plastics though, I really did not want to upset you with my honesty about my surgery. I am the sort of person though who prefers to know the truth about what it's like, and I did a lot of reading pre plastics where people were honest with how it was for them. It helped me and I was mentally prepared as a result. I was far more in control of how I was feeling even when things were going literally tits up in recovery, because I knew what was happening and I was confident I was in good hands. I was not as well prepared after my RNY because I felt some had made it out to be a walk in the park, and this didn't help one bit ! It hurt and I felt pain !
Would I do it all again to have what I have now... in a heart beat. Even knowing what I know now.... yes, in a heartbeat.

Today I was wearing size 14 jeans from New Look. They were being held up by a belt and prayer. So I went to New Look to see if I could get a size 12 pair in the same style. They are really comfy and my fav jeans. So I went in, found a size 12 and went to try them on.... something that was un-heard of pre RNY.... and they were gaping at the back !! I needed a size 10 and had there been a shop assistant within yelling distance I would have called out for her to fetch me a pair just so I could tannoy it about the shop !! I got dressed and put the size 12's back and alas ( stamps foot and goes waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa) there was no size 10 there. I hunted the shop down, but no size 10's anywhere. Bummer ! There were skinny jeans that had a low cut waist line, but I always feel like I am losing my trousers when I try them, and when I have this corset to conceal too, it's not a good look. Size 10... me in a size 10 !!!!! OMG ! I ended up in Menary's getting a delicious pair of Dash designer black jeans in a size 12 which Al says are still too big on me, but I think they are comfy and I like them ! I have the flat tummy but my ass and legs are still there to cater for !! Ok.. not so much my ass, that's shrinking now, but my legs are a mess. No... I am not going for more surgery. It's not happening !

So that's my update. Christmas is coming, and I am sort of ready. Bracing myself for the arrival of the Mother In Law who I know will invade my kitchen and try and take over. I can try and bolster the door and keep her out but I doubt this will work. When she gets a bee in her bonet then it's just easier to go with the flow than fight it. It's not like I will be eating much of the dinner anyway, but I just like to put out a lovely meal for everyone on Christmas day with all the trimmings. I think she just misses cooking for a big family and tries to make out she is doing me a favour by kicking me out of my own kitchen. I don't mind allocating her the stuffing duty with the kids on Christmas eve... that's become tradition, but please leave me to do the rest. It's the only meal of the year that I actually LIKE to cook ! I am cooking for 7 everyday so cooking this meal for 8 is not a big deal !

While I am on the subject of MIL..... Al said to show her my flat tum about 2 weeks ago. So I lifted my jumper and showed her how flat I was, and you know what she said.... lol.....
' goodness, it's even flatter than mine' . My jaw dropped... she was not joking..... this lady is wearing a size 22 but she 'thinks' she has a flat tummy. Good grief. What sort of mirror is she looking in ..... ok. I will shut up now. She and I do get on very well and she is very good to us, but I do wish she would just accept that she cannot be slimmer than me anymore, and that I have worked my butt off to be the way I am now. Sometimes I think she 'gets it' and then she comes out with the 'it's flatter than mine' comment which proves my point that she really hasn't.

Til next time.....