Sunday 3rd February, 2008

Another month has whizzed past and this is how things are with me this month. I am seriously busy most days with chasing about after 5 kids and potty training 2 of them - (don't get me started !) my life is not my own. Eating wise I am eating all around me. This is not good. Some days I can eat more than others but I can always seem to eat snacks without any problem at all. Meal times are hard going, no matter what I am serving up, give me a packet of Skips or Onion Rings and I can nibble away on them no problem. I also have a penchant for frosties in a bowl with no milk ( lactose intolerance prevents me having the milk added) and I sit and chomp away in front of the TV with my bowl of yummy stuff ! I just love the crunch ! Weight wise this eating has not really done much for my weight. I am static at 10 stone 6-7lbs and it never shifts which is heaven ! I am no longer obsessed with the scales either which is a nice release. I used to step onto them every day and either beat myself up and make a vow to walk harder and faster that day to get the lbs moving, but now it doesn't fizz on me if I go on them or not because they never really say anything different to the last time I was on them. I know that some people have real problems with their scales and admit a dependancy on them, but to me, it was just a tool to see if I needed to work harder that day or whether what I had been doing was working. Maybe a larger weight loss seen on the scales after a weeks abstainance would have given me a bigger boost, but I am an inpatient soul, and it would have gutted me to have waited all week to find out that I had not lost any weight at all. Anyway - as I said, I no longer am standing on them every day, and it's once a week IF I happen to remember !

Plastics wise I am still healing well. The darn seroma is still there although I opted to consider burning my corset, I am glad I didn't because the seroma that I had at the end of the second day of not wearing it made me look 5 months pregnant. The corset is back on - albeit a little tighter than usual because my darling hubby tumble dried it yesterday and it shrunk ! The vertical incision from my left boob is now perfectly healed together and both are looking very perky but natural too. I am having mental issues with my legs though. I am a size 10 waist but some cuts of trousers ( like Dotty p's for instance) just can't go up past my legs and bum. The skin seems to come up with the trousers and makes things very awkward. When I was in the swimming pool pre- platics, my legs horrified me because they were swishing about like my very own built in water wings. HORRID ! I know I said no more surgery, but..... I wish I'd had these legs sorted when I had the rest done.

I am just off night shift, so if there are typo's in this post then forgive me. I am pooped. I will write again soon xx